is this it?

if someone were to ask me the one word to describe life in general..
my answer would be ..adapt..
in retrospect that is what i have been doing all my life..and you know what? it scares the hell out of me thinking that this is all I'm going to do in the future..

sometimes i can't help but ask myself..is this it? after the grand drum roll we have been prepared with all our childhood and teenage years..is this it?

when was the last time i jumped without caring where i landed? when was the last time i laughed till my stomach hurt? when was the last time i did something kind without telling a soul or expecting something in return? when was the last time i had such a fulfilling conversation with a person that i could smile thinking about it years later? when was the last time i stopped worrying about exams, studies and revision? when was the last time that i was courageous enough to do something that i know deep down inside must be done? when was the last time i liked who i am?

*sigh* too long ago... i might sound like an ungrateful brat flooded with pubertal hormones..but i can't help feeling that if things don't change...i'll adapt...and i will change...into someone bitter...someone who can't laugh at a decent joke...someone who can't appreciate the fun of spontaneity...someone who does not dare to take that step... someone who criticizes everything and everyone....and someone who complains and get upset over small things like customer service...

i mean...life is MORE than this, right?